I have died.I was not in shape to handle rest of my life sensibly and possibly in a condition of living it happily. I had to end it. I've killed myself. And,now I am dead. Nobody should cry for my death ,but only ME.Because,I want to get up myself.I want to be a new human,a new person with new life.
I have killed all those tiny ,small,large things that have bothered me for long and have put me in question whenever I confronted myself . I believed, things that never existed. I was too overdriven to see the reality myself. Many people, helped me showing that but I never took it because my heart was not ready to accept it ..i am so very thankful to them for being my guiding and apologies for not respecting their sincere advices. Today,I got the reality out myself .I feel glad I did it. I did stumble but I have also reached this day when I am with guts and will to kill myself
My life, was too good the way it was,so far.I loved myself for being whatsoever I was and will always.But , I'd to DIE to take a new BIRTH ,so that I can start on with a new life.This can be said as, I've taken Mercy Killing.I'll end the best part of me ,because that's the reason which made me feel/see/face the worst part of it.
With my new birth, I will live.Live to the best.Its difficult ,very difficult but I can't be fooling myself anymore...I have got all my 'assumptions' cleared.I was so very wrong.No one , is to be blamed..for my death its me who demand and take this bravely. Don't cry for me.
I am strong .I am sure I'll get up and emerge as a shining star.Precisely,that's why I call for a new birth So, that I can FORGET all and make things normal for myself and people around me.
God ,give me blesses and love of my family and friends.They have given me lot of support and love and care.I love them all.
From,now on you'll see a new me.. coz now I am DEAD.
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