Want to break free...

I am really pissed off with my reality , my behavior and with my stupid carefree ways that I use for most important things in life. I feel like a jackass!

I ask myself a question, Why am I living this plastic life? Why I am not sure of what I am?! Why I am not working towards a common goal ,like all? Do I even aspire to do anything in life? Or I just want to act a thing for a few days , live it , enjoy it and move on !?

I want to break free.. I want to have my aim \aspiration\goal\mission so that I work towards it and later enjoy the sense of achievement !

I wanted to be so many things, as per the situations and the situations only made me change my mind and do what I was shown way for ..and I shamefully called it Destiny ! As far as I remember, the thing that became my turning point was NLIU Law entrance. It made me realise many things in life. But, am totally unsatisfied with my carerr graph the next year. I should have tried in law and not in MBA. The bottom line is , I want to pursue MY GOAL. I want to live the feeling of achivement ..

Its my final year of MBA only 6 months to wind up the course..and if you ask me what big thing I did in this course? Then , I have a shameful bow head in front of you.I don't want to be called useless,stupid,average female ! I want to break free my image...I want to achieve something for myself..I want to cry for my happiness...I want a day ..

And, for last 6 months of my academic life..I am going to give up everything that is important to me..to get THE MOST IMPORTANT in life.. I want to break free the average image..God help me fight this war for myself ,many of my debts will be paid..