I am really pissed off with my reality , my behavior and with my stupid carefree ways that I use for most important things in life. I feel like a jackass!
I ask myself a question, Why am I living this plastic life? Why I am not sure of what I am?! Why I am not working towards a common goal ,like all? Do I even aspire to do anything in life? Or I just want to act a thing for a few days , live it , enjoy it and move on !?
I want to break free.. I want to have my aim \aspiration\goal\mission so that I work towards it and later enjoy the sense of achievement !
I wanted to be so many things, as per the situations and the situations only made me change my mind and do what I was shown way for ..and I shamefully called it Destiny ! As far as I remember, the thing that became my turning point was NLIU Law entrance. It made me realise many things in life. But, am totally unsatisfied with my carerr graph the next year. I should have tried in law and not in MBA. The bottom line is , I want to pursue MY GOAL. I want to live the feeling of achivement ..
Its my final year of MBA only 6 months to wind up the course..and if you ask me what big thing I did in this course? Then , I have a shameful bow head in front of you.I don't want to be called useless,stupid,average female ! I want to break free my image...I want to achieve something for myself..I want to cry for my happiness...I want a day ..
And, for last 6 months of my academic life..I am going to give up everything that is important to me..to get THE MOST IMPORTANT in life.. I want to break free the average image..God help me fight this war for myself ,many of my debts will be paid..
Showing posts with label career. Show all posts
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Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Sunday, August 31, 2008
From Nail Bitting to Drooling,is M.B.A!
I am happy to share this news with my blog buddies ,that finally I've taken my admission in M.B.A and am off to a professional life.I don't know, how many changes I'll bring in myself, in the two years of this course.But, surely I'll try and keep my real self alive!
To the addition, I'd seen many people who completely have changed ,esp. after doing M.B.A and they became very crisp and selective to the core. This course does make you like this. Precisely, that's the need of the hour. Some three years back , I met somebody who was pursuing an M.B.A from a prestigious institution. This fellow was an eye-opening experience to me.I saw him growing, in the two years of M.B.A . How, he attained everything with fine perfection.I think , I was actually stumped ! But, he could never convince me for M.B.A.To the contrary,he never wanted to! I never saw him taking this course as a burden, he enjoyed every single moment to it and yes he eventually was a true charmer. Now, I understand how he was so dexterous ! Later, when he got done with his placements (of course a biig fat salary !) .He joined the same corporate life where nothing is fun all is (mind)game !
I saw a drastic change in him.He hardly use to crack a joke or throw smileys! Earlier he was so flexible and ultra-cool.A sportive guy , who was always interested in rarest of the rare things and there was no partiality,in his passion for things.But,when in job he became just the opposite. An anti-social parasite. A hot headed pig! No-jokes-territory was his all time location. And, his humor got worse.I try and ask him out the reason for this abrupt change and he just answered ,'Its work..work.. work!'. I heartily felt bad for him and never wanted to loose my real self , like he did in the burden of work.There were several other things,which I avoid to mention here.
Many a times , I contradicted him and got the ball in my court that life after college is rock boat but you can be happy ! He also stopped being a benefactor! [:P] No blandishment,intended !But, he was one stubborn guy I never wanna meet anybody like that,again! I retorted , and took a pledge sort of, that I wouldn't change after M.B.A ,like this! I doubt, a bit now.
Reason to the motion, its just four days of my M.B.A college and things have taken a fast track , where I've no time for anything that's not of any relevance. Its hard to adjust ,after four years in co-ed after three years of strict feminism and womanhood , how can I give the trade to bandits(guys) I've solemnized to shoot at sight ! Also, 9 to 5 classes schedule will take time to bury the hatchet .But, classes are fun.I enjoy them , and they satisfy me more or less. I always wanted a practical approach to my studies, no mugging for me! The vary thing annoys me, from top to bottom.
I love presentations, projects, communication, tasks, cross-counters , am enjoying it all !What piss me off , is the inability to receive the gestures,dialects,attitude of extra-punk people ie. of the bandits! I mean, there were things which my friends use to say and I've reacted so badly,that they felt sorry for doing it. But, now I have to gladly bear all this! I feel,I did injustice to me friends. I am sorry. But, that's the way I am. You get the pun? No vampire,bites plz!
At this moment , I feel like saying ,I am an introvert! No worries, I'll soon have to change otherwise journey won't be smooth and enjoyable. The past repents all , you see. And, you understand the worth of each moment in life.Thanks , to that mind set , that made me drop a year. I,respect my life now.
I hope, my dear readers will enjoy this blog now..may be I was boring before ! Also, I am being ragged and forced to do insensible things :( I hate it and thats the course of this professionalism ,from nail biting to drooling !?! ;) :P :(
To the addition, I'd seen many people who completely have changed ,esp. after doing M.B.A and they became very crisp and selective to the core. This course does make you like this. Precisely, that's the need of the hour. Some three years back , I met somebody who was pursuing an M.B.A from a prestigious institution. This fellow was an eye-opening experience to me.I saw him growing, in the two years of M.B.A . How, he attained everything with fine perfection.I think , I was actually stumped ! But, he could never convince me for M.B.A.To the contrary,he never wanted to! I never saw him taking this course as a burden, he enjoyed every single moment to it and yes he eventually was a true charmer. Now, I understand how he was so dexterous ! Later, when he got done with his placements (of course a biig fat salary !) .He joined the same corporate life where nothing is fun all is (mind)game !
I saw a drastic change in him.He hardly use to crack a joke or throw smileys! Earlier he was so flexible and ultra-cool.A sportive guy , who was always interested in rarest of the rare things and there was no partiality,in his passion for things.But,when in job he became just the opposite. An anti-social parasite. A hot headed pig! No-jokes-territory was his all time location. And, his humor got worse.I try and ask him out the reason for this abrupt change and he just answered ,'Its work..work.. work!'. I heartily felt bad for him and never wanted to loose my real self , like he did in the burden of work.There were several other things,which I avoid to mention here.
Many a times , I contradicted him and got the ball in my court that life after college is rock boat but you can be happy ! He also stopped being a benefactor! [:P] No blandishment,intended !But, he was one stubborn guy I never wanna meet anybody like that,again! I retorted , and took a pledge sort of, that I wouldn't change after M.B.A ,like this! I doubt, a bit now.
Reason to the motion, its just four days of my M.B.A college and things have taken a fast track , where I've no time for anything that's not of any relevance. Its hard to adjust ,after four years in co-ed after three years of strict feminism and womanhood , how can I give the trade to bandits(guys) I've solemnized to shoot at sight ! Also, 9 to 5 classes schedule will take time to bury the hatchet .But, classes are fun.I enjoy them , and they satisfy me more or less. I always wanted a practical approach to my studies, no mugging for me! The vary thing annoys me, from top to bottom.
I love presentations, projects, communication, tasks, cross-counters , am enjoying it all !What piss me off , is the inability to receive the gestures,dialects,attitude of extra-punk people ie. of the bandits! I mean, there were things which my friends use to say and I've reacted so badly,that they felt sorry for doing it. But, now I have to gladly bear all this! I feel,I did injustice to me friends. I am sorry. But, that's the way I am. You get the pun? No vampire,bites plz!
At this moment , I feel like saying ,I am an introvert! No worries, I'll soon have to change otherwise journey won't be smooth and enjoyable. The past repents all , you see. And, you understand the worth of each moment in life.Thanks , to that mind set , that made me drop a year. I,respect my life now.
I hope, my dear readers will enjoy this blog now..may be I was boring before ! Also, I am being ragged and forced to do insensible things :( I hate it and thats the course of this professionalism ,from nail biting to drooling !?! ;) :P :(
Monday, May 28, 2007
Yuppie!!!
Well..well...finally I am a GRADUATE!
Gives a very good feel...!!
But,a long way to go.
Thanks to all my mentors, guide's , all my online friends and last but not the least my Proffessors and college for always being... there.
Will never forget this phase of life. Learnt a lot.
A new life is eagerly awaited, with your blesses and wishes on me.DO give!!
Gives a very good feel...!!
But,a long way to go.
Thanks to all my mentors, guide's , all my online friends and last but not the least my Proffessors and college for always being... there.
Will never forget this phase of life. Learnt a lot.
A new life is eagerly awaited, with your blesses and wishes on me.DO give!!
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