Will always miss chachi....

Reaching Delhi and living here was not difficult till I got the news of Chachi 's death. It was my first day at office ie. 12th May 2009 and whole day I was sitting and was talking to seniors till my lappy was to be alloted.I was introduced to my Project guide and Boss Mr.Atul Jain , Head fin Corp. This man is amazing , he's very sincere and particular about his and inspires me a lot.

Then I was asked by guide to co-ordinate with his assistant .Also, in my next cabin sits Project Head Finance -Sanjay Sir, he's a very good friend now and helped me a lot As my guide's assistant was about to give me my assingment,R.D gave me a call . I called him back and he said , " chachi ki death ho gayi " I was shocked could'nt blve the news and started crying , did'nt knew to whom should i go and cry with .First day of office I heardly got to know ppl there.I went to guide and asked if I can go , told him the reason and he gave me an off.

Coming out of the office , near guard office I could'nt stop myself and started crying , called up khokho then , he made me a bit relax and was informing tinu n parents. I had no clue about public transport in Delhi Noida . I somehow managed ,and where I live from there I've change to bus .In second bus , somebody guided me wrong and I had to step down at wrong station. But I managed. Reached home.

Later. called dad , asked him why he did'nt tell me and all cried a lot...I met chachi..before coming for interns...I went to her place ,she made me eat the cake prepared by her and I cooked her baked Garlic Bread , she liked it a lot. She gave me money to have fun and...she cried when I was leaving.....I will always miss u chachi.... and I will always do my best to help chotu with life ... Chotu is my cousin , whose mom was my chachi... my chacha , his father expired 10 years back , and his real sister expired 14 years back..he's just a 21 year old guy. Now, who is alone..in this world.....but I am always with him .

The second day of office , I had no wish to go, but due to tauji n parents forced me so I went to office. I did some work and took a half day ,was not at all feeling good and wanted a change so I went alone and took a bus to Indraprasth and thought will ride in Metro and will come back but fortunatly I met some great girls in the bus who helped me figure out things and asked to stepdown at C.P .It take 1.5 hrs from the place I live ,to reach there. I was scared , had a fear but I was confident I will reach. I got down near Stateman Building and saw what a great place C.P was... When I went to Mumbai this year , I was staying at South Mumbai and that became my dream place to work at , but after seeing C.P , this even sounds to be great.

Fortunately, I saw Oxford BookHouse there books being my weakness I thought I'll pass on my time . But, I missed the door and moved forward in the street. I took a turn near the subway of DBS bank and met a girl called Riya. I inquired from her the places I can visit and she asked me if i wud like to join her, as she is going that way , I was more than happy to accompany her and we became best of frnds , we were together for 4-5 hours had complete fun of C.P Circle went to all luxury class showrooms and and all eatery place , Mc D being my fav , we had ourlunch there and as this visit was unplanned I had to get bck hom by 6:30 pm .

Riya took me to her office ,she's based outta Chandigarh lives in dwarka with her parents. Later se dropped to C.P Metro Station and came along to see if I safely reach there. It was first time I was travelling in Metro and trust me it was awesome !

I took a ticket for Indraprasth and got down there.But, that was a wrong choice. I had to change 2 buses to reach home. Had I got down at Yamuna Bank , I could have got a direct bus feeder to my place.

But, this trip was great and I felt good . By the then my new Airtel Stuck number also got activated after 3 days of application n procedures! Huh

Changed Voice..

Looking outside my room's window I see a twinkling star in darkness , which reminds me of positiveness in life. I never saw anything so beautiful , that was just so visible from my home ! I admire this.

When I get up early morning , these days , my thoughts are very neutral. As in, they don't pull me towards anything ; probably the passion is missing , also the day gives me headache , this actually sounds weird even to me ! I drag ,I drag and I drag.

By the time ,noon takes it turns I surely have had one or two arguments. Which makes me feel hostile, a bit gloomy , sense of reconciling everything and then next thing that comes to my mind is sleep or go out for traveling ! I may, do any, depends on mood and situations after arguments!

I seriously, miss my reading :( , miss my tving , miss my chit-chatting on phone/net ,miss my music !! But, I just don't feel like doing anything, the vary feeling irritates me , annoys me , pesters me , after all , why I'll do past-time things when for the moment, they are not so favorite, to do ! Feels soooooo...bad and sad saying this now :((

Then , by eve I try to catch up something good ,which lets me at least count this day to be lived. So, I go online and look for things that I should be doing etc . Forgot to mention , now even orkut sucks biig time ! In fact , all networking sites or anything of that sort!

Nothing , much is achieved even by that. Then , I get a strong urge to go and play some sports , something like squash ,badminton or basketball or even running on the athletic tracks. I always found , running and playing ,is a good mental exercise ,which broadens your thinking and calm you down ,so that you can think ,what you actually want to and you get a sense of positiveness and No Confusion ! [Courtesy : Bingo Chips !] But, the big dope here is 'Permission' . Sadly, due to rules as set by my Daddy Dear I can't step out after 6 PM ..Oh yes laugh it off !! Who cares ! grrr

By night, I get so humiliated by rules, laws and regulations and the grilling hot sentences , that I have no more urge to live the day ...I just fall aback on my bed ,taking my pillow and with my vibrating cell phone.

One good thing , that happens in all day long is taking to my bhai ..within a flash of time he makes me experience things which I think ,I'd have never known or faced .This man is a genius ! He can fix problems like that, he can give u snapshot of everything ,that is in this world and his emotional level is also very very good . He does knock me down but he's a real sweetheart.[Any girls ,interested in him ,please contact me :P lol ] Ayush bhai ,love ya lots ! Thanks a lot for making things easier for me ! May god bless always.

And , with all this the day end and starts again...

Btw, the reason I wrote this blog post is only because of that 'twinkling' star by my window , which gave me positiveness and the boost to write a new year post ! :) I've been thinking to give my readers a surprise with something new ..I hope you all like it ! Do comments folks ;)

Happy New year ! :P

BB Movies : Dostana

You know ,its 'Dostana ' . No, you know its gay ! The story is light ,very light. And watching this movie early morning ,is a waste. I suffered this. Yesterday, me and my friends went to catch up 9:30 am show of Dostana. I did not wanted to watch the movie,but due to mood swing ,I went.

I cannot narrate the sizzling Shilpa's number ,because I missed the beginning of the movie ! I was lucky to miss 15 mins rest of my friends missed 30 mins of the movie ,crazy ppl!

I seriously , have no interest to tell you the story because there's no story except the fact, that John and Abhishek in the movie act gay just to get the citizenship of NYC .Being gay, you get the permit within 1 year ,which generally takes 5 years for others. So , they play smart. In the mid, they are also looking for an apartment ,which has best of facilities at a reasonable cost and a beautiful lady around. So, Priyanka aka Neha is the beautiful gal who let them share her apartment to pay off her loan debts and also she feels secure to have gay as housemates.Quiet logical,only if guys are really gays! No offfence.

I liked Neha's dressing sense.Amazing.She was utterly looking ravishing ,hot ,beautiful ,but guys in the movie or theater did not gave her a damn !? Surprises me. John ,looks superb in the movie, c'mon he can't be gay rather we should put it like he should be gay. Abhishek, was not so appealing but his gay acting was very real and natural.I laughed and so did others.

I disliked ,Boman Irani's role ,too goddy. And, Bobby Deol was real spoiled sport ,not a single impressive expression ! There's a kid in the movie ,who is Bobby aka Abhinav's son. He's very sweet and I liked him :-) And, Mrs Anupam Kher plays truly pathetic ! No comments about other characters. I was wondering Karan would surprise us with Special Appearence of SRK or Kajol or Rani ,but none were there , only a silly video of Kuch Kuch Hota Hai was sreened in the movie , which sucked big time . Karan , please don't ever try and make movies without SRK , u suck man !

One thing, that I noticed while watching and would want to share is , if you(girls) go and watch this movie with guys ,then don't sit next to them and keep on noticing the changing expressions within quantum of time.Its more exciting then the movie.! Later, you will hear their cry out to sit with girl(s) :-D

N.B: And, yes the above expression in guys will come ,when they see the kissing scene of John and Abhishek,its said to be highly influential ;-)

Not a good leap year...

2008 is a leap year.This leap year has given hurt for lifetime.Today is last day of BCL.I am emotional , senti to the core. Have been crying and frankly speaking, my mood is very very bad that I can blow anything.I mean it. Coz I did a few things.

Also, other things in my life are falling at places, like from where they came, they are going backK there.

Don't feel like writing any furthur..

Its My BCL,my love

This is the pic that came in HT BHOPAL. And,the girl(in suit ) speaking is ,ME. Protest outside British Library.

My love ,BCL is shutting down .And,I am very very unhappy with this.I never thought in my life BCL can ever shut down and so soon , it was hard to digest and felt like an injustice to me and many others like me.

I lived half of my life there.BCL is a place and only one association which gives me a sense-of-belonging. Now , anything so close to a person's life can't be taken away. I made my friends here.Everytime in stress/worry, books and this place has help me to come out of it. I lived here.And,words really run out at this moment..

I had to do something, I met the Manager,who is also one of my closest friend.I cried ,left as if my arms are cut.I just, felt so uncomfy for second time in life. Anyway,the first condition was not in my hand .But, this surely was. I don't know how a leader born in me and I started a protest. Yes! Me protesting..can you beleive that. Yes, I have been a feminist but never thought to be a social activist so fast.

However, things are proggressing.Am learning a lot things.Some really piss me offand some give the feel of humanity.That humanity is still there.

I'll keepupdate things here.But, won't be that frequent in posting as a lot of work to be done. Wish me luck! Thanks.

# And,here's a pic from newspaper to make you blve am doing that thingie (protest)!:p