Want to break free...

I am really pissed off with my reality , my behavior and with my stupid carefree ways that I use for most important things in life. I feel like a jackass!

I ask myself a question, Why am I living this plastic life? Why I am not sure of what I am?! Why I am not working towards a common goal ,like all? Do I even aspire to do anything in life? Or I just want to act a thing for a few days , live it , enjoy it and move on !?

I want to break free.. I want to have my aim \aspiration\goal\mission so that I work towards it and later enjoy the sense of achievement !

I wanted to be so many things, as per the situations and the situations only made me change my mind and do what I was shown way for ..and I shamefully called it Destiny ! As far as I remember, the thing that became my turning point was NLIU Law entrance. It made me realise many things in life. But, am totally unsatisfied with my carerr graph the next year. I should have tried in law and not in MBA. The bottom line is , I want to pursue MY GOAL. I want to live the feeling of achivement ..

Its my final year of MBA only 6 months to wind up the course..and if you ask me what big thing I did in this course? Then , I have a shameful bow head in front of you.I don't want to be called useless,stupid,average female ! I want to break free my image...I want to achieve something for myself..I want to cry for my happiness...I want a day ..

And, for last 6 months of my academic life..I am going to give up everything that is important to me..to get THE MOST IMPORTANT in life.. I want to break free the average image..God help me fight this war for myself ,many of my debts will be paid..

Burn the crackers...

Happy Diwali to all...

Its been couple of months, that I didn't blog about anything. The reason is, I was busy exploring my girl side ! Don't get starstruck! I actually had great time these 2 months.. I enjoyed the beauty of laughter , beauty of sleepless nights, beauty of being a female,beauty of exploring myself...it was a blessing. The spark was good , we connected , we liked to know each other , we were at our best..or may be not..may there was lot to be explored..

But..my liabilities really made me think of and pinch myself asking, 'what am I doing now?' Its not that will take me to my dreams , it will not let me be what I hv been waiting to be for last 23 years of my life..I have to be on my own, I have to pay debts of my parents ,I have to make them proud n happy and I have to live too many dreams..I can't stop by now..

I did nothing..to stop by though each day it was my wanderlust but I just could'nt give up the best thing I got in a draw! My each blink makes me think today..why am I not moving forward, when things have moved on?

The 'priceless' thing is no more with me...I sob , I think, I sob, I pretend, I get hyper moody,I get frust ,I sob this is what's happening to me after that. Btw..I nvr gave up that thing , it was taken away from me and given to somebody else..who actually dosen't deserve MY THING.

I wonder sometime..am I that bad or too good? I forgive and I am trying to forget but I can't put a mask for a long time..I can't pretend things are ok, when they are not..it frustrates me, suffocates me , make me feel like a begger ..

Hope..this diwali turns out good for everyone...n I'd always miss my thing...which is no more mine...

I thank all my frnds esp. anu,nisha,randip,swats,mik, for helping me ..being with me..but I still wrapped in it guys ..

Serendipity

Life has been cruel to me time n again but it has never been so beautiful and yet distressing at the same time. At the same time ,I m screwed badly in life. Things came to me in a flash and took away things from my hand..I don't regret for what is gone because I've got the best thing ever , in return of it.

For a month, I lived amazingly , enjoyed best moments of my life , explored a lil more about myself and what my closed ones think about me as an individual and how my past episodes can come in question , which were never ever complicated , but now they seem a bit.

I've got a wonderful gift in this past 1 month, it was a destiny gift to me or may be you can term it as a compensation to what Tsunami caused me 3-4 years back. I was happy , excited and feared. I couldn't understand why these things happening with me and they seem so destiny prone.

I took baby steps and then completely tried to blend my self into the enigma that came to me as my life compensation , with so many beauties wrapped with it.Yes, I lived it, the best part. But, somehow figured out later it isn't not for me may be, coz things started getting unrest as happiness got expanded the supply of troubles got increases day by day , it didn't quiet seem like destiny thing for a while but it was a DESTINY decision.

Now, when human mind fails , the suffering increases and you still want that thing in your life..u need to believe on something called 'SERENDIPITY' and I can do nothing but do the gambling again...that if its meant to be for me , destiny will make its way in my life again..

I realised within this one month , who are my real friends , how my life is programmed and how a small trojan can ruin me in a second , if I've no good advisory board :) Thankfully, I'd greta set of people with me who made me understand 'What are my needs'..thanks guys.. n bhai

To my reciever, I'd just say...it was amazing with u , I'd the best time with you, I am heartly sorry for my misdeed but from teh bottom of my heart say I would wanna be with when destiny wants us to be together..that's why its Serendipity......Thanks again... Cheers to life

The first time....

You may assume that I am sad with the fact, that first time in life I've been detained [D] . Now let me define what Detain is ,in my college. A student gets a D , when he\she has less than 75% attendance in a particular subject. Before, you take your thinking pas further, let me tell you the explanations.

In my whole student life , I was never detained or was never out of class due to my short attendance.But, in my last academic course at P.G level I got a D! I am quiet shameful about it, and I've been detained in my specialization subject Advertising! That's even worse to realise...

The most striking reactions that I got on this D was from my professors ,they were quiet taken back , that I could be so not-a-good-student! I mean common there were so many students he dint turn up to the class, but only I was detained with 2 other guys!! Its GROSS!

But, as my fav Proff. said that time , while she was inquiring in surprise , did I bunked classes for movies or what! While I replied her , stating I was never detained ever in my entire life, she inspires me a lot everytime and this time she again had something new to make me learn , she just quoted , " Experiences are important in life , they make you live it better". I truly admire her and now even more...I respect every bit of advice she gives me and wants me to be like...I secretly wish to give her a huge surprise that makes her realise that she inspired a right student...

Thanks Mam

P.S: This D experience in life, I think will definatly make me do something biig...I get a strong feeling about it...lets see :)

Its my 23rd B'day!!!

Hey Hey..I've grown much older now...23 ! Phew..I can't blve but that's the fact :)

U know when year go by..u dont feel ur b'day is ne more special...once a frnd told me this, who completed his 30 years a year back! And, I laughed on his face...but today i realise his agitation n pain n watsoever..

So far, no even my best frnd like brother dint even wish me neither did my dad... and as I dont posses a bf so that corner is also not there...frnds are there but due to some friction last week everything depends on instincts..no probable plans for the days..also also some Grahan is there so after 5 Pm I can't party...and frankly speaking m not happy on my bday...I feel bored and neglected..and certainly I don't wish to party like daily I feel...this is how a person probably reacts when he's 23...

Thanks for the wishes of frnds n loved ones... :)

khokho ki Achay-E-yaaN!

I am very much emotional right now and I thank GoD for giving me a life like this ,where I've met and have in my life some of the gorgeous people in the world!

I just can't stop talking about khokho ,he tops the chart in any list! khokho and I ,the relationship we carry is amazing and unique in its way.Nobody could ever digest how our association made so much of difference in our respective lives and ,in and around our friends and family.I feel elated and I want to admit I have been very very lucky to have a friend,father,mentor,guide,brother like khohko....

I demand a lot from him and he tries often to fulfil but when I am too demanding and not sensible from his point of view he screw me really hard; he can upset me and and he will be blabbering all shit and bad bad bad things! But, still I find him good later and he makes me teach life lessons this way.

I respect khokho and relationship we've with each other. There are times when khokho was not in his best form and was unstable with life , when I see him weak I get unsettled for not being able to do things for him but just the fact that we are forever there for each other,makes us strong and he regains his strength to work better ,and become the best .

I've seen him falling and getting up thay fast.I thank life, for giving me khokho and I pray to god to help him reach out his dreams .... happy father's day khokho .I love it ,when you are happy and giggle like a horse! Hugs.

khokho ki kahaniyan...

khokho is ma ROCKSTAR!! I mean ,words run miles away when I thinnk about goodness of khokho. He's just so amazing and vibrant and sparky and intelligent and humurous and umm the best guy available on earth for any girl!! Oh u bet!

It feels lucky and a matter of pride to be known as his sister. I am getting very emotional right now, thinking about his goodness to the world at large, to family and to his frnds. I have been discovering parts of khokho day n night,everyday and each day I find him getting better and better.It amazes me ,how fine one can be..and trust me I not flowing in emotional stories but objectively I can say he's actually the guy u've just read in good novels or may be bad novels too :P

hehe. khokho and I am very kool with each other ,we share thousands of things in a day or may be in an hour! I usually get carried away with humor n laughter but khokho is kinda 200% sincere guy than any normal human. I mean he's just the ideal guy, like how a guy should be!

I always tel him my choice of guys , that I like , u know just eye tonic types and he just pass it on.From a few days I've been very frequently getting loads of eye tonics :P and he's so pissed off with me ,that he was ready to slap me for saying it again!! And, he hates me doing orkutting :

While ,today I saw him in real bro mode ,he was no less than Rocky Balboa , I mean so far i've seen him teasing me ;others, cracking high -voltage humorous jokes ; fine quality of sarcarsm ; and lately a bit of anger but today he was turning into action hero. He combed his wet hair back ways and was wearing a dark marron saturn shirt with demins and to increase the grace he had his classic flotters . We were driving back from somewhere and stopped in a Dhaba for refreshement.

There's a famous Dhaba chain ,called 'Pappu ka Dhaba' , it was that only. I ordered a thumbs up and he , a tea. Then some labour type guy came n sat opposite side of me with a Camera Phone and I got the idea, he's clicking my pics . I told bhai and he did nothing then , but later he became so so monstorous , that the guy ranaway taking his cell phone. I never saw this brotherly part of him before. I am quite amazed after that incidence and khokho mein baat hai :P haha ladka yehi hai!!

khokho and I were in a mall , a few days back , we had loads of fun and had lunch .khokho had to leave for a meeting at 4:3 pm and I was adamant to stay back , so I snatched away his glasses and he kept begging me, to give it back. I was having fun of my life! :P He played a trick, he snatched away my-emotionally-attached-bottle and gave warning he will throw it away ,if I did'nt gave his glasses. Then , he snatched my handbag , now he can't throw that!!! But, he can !

He threw my bottle away and I got red angry ,then he started laughing like a devil and again asked for it. I had to give it back and he left. I was red hot and went inside the mall. After an hour , I left by bus and he called me in mid. Guess what? He said , he's coming back to the mall. I took another bus and got back to the mall :P hum dono munn se hi chalte hia :P hehehe , finally he paid off for his deeds , by making me buy stuff and ye he can make me laugh!!

love u khokho, u r the world's best BROTHER!

Pantry Time....sshh

Its been a month now that I am in NCR ,and been regular to office except one day bunk. I believe its kool to go to office than sitting at home in a city like Delhi and doing nothing. If I wanted to just rest and spend time sleeping, I wud have got this very very easily in Bhopal ,at my home. But, I wanted to live it up and learn something that will help me nourish and grow for future or immediate future life.And, I can say I took a right decision to come here and I am grateful to my parents that they allowed me , to live my dreams .Thanks a zillion mum-dad! Love u!

Now, am understanding everything,all basics of life ,why my parents use to stop me for things. I get all my answers here.B'coz I try things here in my way ,more or less, and the estimated result or a result I could not even think of. Each day is a learning experience professionally and personally.

Wooah..I moving away from Pantry! Ok. leme come back. So, my office timmings are at a stretch from 9AM to 6PM and I am not at all use to it. Though , now I am !Often , it gets boring to work and work.

But, thankfully I am blessed with good interns in my office. We all are girls.Recently , a new intern has joined us ,named Ankur Garg.He sits in my cubicle only and I bully him,he even admitted.LoL. So, Anu-Nisha-Me we all three go for several coffee and idle breaks. These days breaks go for a lil longer than usual. We only get 30 mins lunch, which is unfair yar , come on .

I drink only coldrink and eat Milk Powder and Monaco Biscuit, this is what I like in the Pantry. Nisha is a biscuit and coffee freak.And, Anu she can be a coffee drinker, a tea drinker ,a lemon tea drinker and coldrink of course. Our Chandan bhaiya serves us and he gets free of cost, without any hidden tax ,our GTalk!

We girls talk random in pantry ,its like a beauty saloon where several girls stuck up and they have nothing but they open all their sorrows,happiness,plans, views et al. We generaly talk about nisha's and anu's bf. As I am single , they explore chances for me. I crack most of the jokes on them, their bf and on myself of course. We solve probs , we gossip about office about our boss,about any new hunk in the office, if any lucky day is there!

Also, we talk a lot of weekends plans but can finalise only a few. I tell u couples Vs. Single is difficult. Now,none of my frnds are single ,except me of course.And, tell u what I am happy go lucky single! I love it and at times my frnds envy my singledom :P haha!;)

One such case is, today we all were discussing about Salsa dance. I have a huge desire to learn Salsa. I love the formation and the music and the sincerity and fun ,the dance carries.In Bhopal, also I asked my dad a few times to learn it , but he never agreed. Some days back I asked Tauji ,he too denied .Today , I thought R.D would lend a suggestion , but he too denied and made me do Salsa with him in the car!

Later, I discussed with khokho, he too was not ready with idea of Salsa and closed it very lightely. Then , in pantry we started this discussion. And, anu, nisha bot had desire to learn it. I got excited and was damn ready to join it right now , right here.

But, without twist no story is complete.Anu, started to runaway saying, his bf won't like it,if she's learning Salsa with some other guy.Nisha,seldomly said the same and I had no restrictions other than family ,which is huge! But, I want to learn Salsa, though I will skip the steps which are very very intimate ; a dance is a dance ,its formation and moves are important ,though Salsa is a romantic and a intimate dance.

We packed up the discussion, playing my fav song by Akon- I wanna Love u , what a song ! Every girl like it and seriously I can dance with a chair in this song :P. Akon rox! But, will I ever learn Salsa :( kya hu#$y ke sath sikhne ka wait karna padega :(((

Sunday Surprise

Sunday is usually a day in here , that I spend at home. I am actually not allowed to make any plans for that day and also tauji n R.D don't like if I go anywhere on that day. Also, frnds are bus on their own. SO, I don't put mucha effort to escape away from home for any gathering.



R.D ,Tauji and Me , we three do our sunday outing. After a good brunch ,we sleep and by the late afternoon we go out. Its been 3 Sundays here. And ,each sunday excites me. First Sunday , we went to roam around Delhi Side and then Ggn and later had our dinner in Noida. So, in one go , three cities were covered. It was a sure shot fun!



Second , was R.d's bday so I cud't dare to make any plans. And, when I tried putting one , he cancelled his plans and got pissed off.We later in the eve went for some shopping and had plans to eat outside. Though we got tired and had to come back home. Then I planned a surprise party for him. Decorated his room and got the cake, food everything and clicked ,clicked.He was happy and liked it.

Third Sunday was, again very slow and we all were lazy , but not going out on a holiday upsets me. So, with the help of forceable moves I could convince R.D and tauji to go out. We went to Green Park for my new hair-do and later we went to South Ex. did some shopping and came back.

This will be fourth Sunday , I guess and again its in the hand of R.D and tauji how they take it fwd. But, I want more , like a weekend trip to Mussorrie or Jaipur or Vaishno Devi or to the least Agra!

Lets see if I can have any plan like that,will definatly let ya know. For now, I have some sat plans ie. pre Sunday plans , will narate the entire trip. Cherrio till then!

Sock it ,Saket!

I am happy that my sis aki , read my post and she reacted above expectations,though on phone she was loud! But, I like it here what she scribbled , that may also be her promotion trick for her new -nut-much-hyped blog!! hehe.love u babes :)



Hmm..this saturday I had many plans lined up and with different kinda persons. I had actualy four groups to hang out with out of which none were confirmed cent % ,and suriety was anyone will at least accompany me.



The story begins ... my cousin Appu was coming down from U.K this sat and his parents came Delhi to recieve him.And, I was suppose to go along with them to recieve him from the airport but I knew how boring and furious it would be. So, I had all reasons to convince myself n others that I am not going to the airport with others.



I pushed off at office time and Anu ,intern with me office .We had plans to meet up and go around.This is what I was infromed. I called Anu , to know about the plan and she very desperatly wanted me to with her. She called me at Sec-37 , Noida , where she lives. She mite have called me 5-6 times in 10 mins of drive , till I reached there. I had no clue what's on her mind. Though I knew , we may go to Gurgoan (ggn ).



I reached and she declared we are off to Saket -Select City Mall.We took an auto to Saket and it charged us very minimal ,and she offered to sponsor it. It was all perfect , until she tell me ,that she is going for a blind date! And, she wud be away for an hour or so and will be bck soon. I so very much wanted to bang her.



But, u can't stop a desperate human!; What is destined to happen will happen! We reached Mall before all shops were open. I kept telling Anu,to come back in an hour and everytime she pushed that she wud not make late than 2 hours.



And, guess what ? She didnt turn up the entire day! Don't know ,what guys do that girls stick to them and don't care about anything in the world! Cheat-Cheetos! I was apparently alone , spending time in the Malls. Select Mall was covered ,did a bit of shopping liked a top in Pramod, was actually good but did'nt had enough cash that time.



Later, there was some movie shooting going on MGF Mall , went there. It was very dull. Was exhibited with Spas and Japnese Cuisine , saw helluva Geishas here in India!



I had to get a hair cut , was at Javed Habibs Saloon. Met Javed ,he suggested a few. But, I did'nt quiet like it. So , came back. Khokho ,is incidently near by where I live , but he's hardly ready to spend to time with his sis, sadly! Though, he offered me to join him with his most dangerous frnd GG. How obvious , it was for him, that I'll refuse, and he'll rescue! Ye he did rescue!



At , around 2 I got a call from Tauji , as to when I am coming back. I had no clue and no way to tell them I am at Saket.So, I did here n there.And, planned to move alone.



I was ready to pay for the autorickshaw, but trust me they charged a lot , infact in that fair I could hve travelled to Agra! They were charging me Rs.450 onse side fair from Saket to 37 Sec. And, I came to Saket in morning @ Rs. 110. What a difference! huh



After shocks and cribbs and I boarded a bus till Mother Dairy and afetr seating I was reflecting over the day , how I was used as a prop , how my ppl do with me, how khokho has become ! n bla bla but I am gutsy so took lessons and moved on to enjoy this unexpected travel all the way to Noida.



I got down after an hour,reached Mother Dairy. Then ,some gentleman suggested me to take a bus. I was missing my sat Metro ! :( They are so kool to travel and fast as well! Next sat, pakka metro! By the then I reached home , was very tired and pissed off wiht anu n khokho n others but I still had expectations at home , they wud anyways take me around till C.P , at least.



To my surprise appu n R.D were driving away to pick me from office and they were quiet astonished how I came.But, I could only smile infront of them. I reached upstairs had my favourite Chicken Curry and Roasted Chicken. And, I was asked to sleep , I heard them this time , because I was tired !



Whole day ,passed by like this . In eve , there was a dinner at somebody's place ,where we went yesterday . So, I again had no wish to go. I had to refuse. Appu ,got some movies from U.K , so spent watching them in the verandah , where cool breeze made me feel good. At , 10 PM , everybody came back and I got down to see off appu ,uncle-aunty who were headed back to home tonight at 11:30 PM.



R.D again , gave some silly reason ; like we will get late , u r in shorts I won't take u out like this bla bla, though many protested him ,but actually the luggage took my space :( And, I was again compelled to stay back home ,on sat :(( Hate it ,Puke puke.



While I was saying them bye, a dog came and started licking my hand , it was so unexpected and weird for me that I first time in my life I used F word :( and that too infront of my elders and brothers.



I was completely embarassed and could'nt bve myself , how did I say it ! Later , I looked down hiding away and Appu caught y eyes and gave a cunning smile



And, this is how the day caed sat, came to its end.

Crush on Delhi...

I preety much like this popular Book title Crush On Delhi ,these days. Well, I even mean it, I also 've a crush on delhi! Actually, NCR! I have my escapades here,everyday. But, time constraints are very much there.Still, I manage to make it to the most and enjoy the heat,zest for life, feel the passion of life, discover new dreams n desires and so much into it, that no trouble or interupption can stop the traveling endeavour..

Isn't it Wow!?! Well, I like /love traveling . I've been challenged by near and dear ones to travel alone but don't they know I can do it , in fact I do that quiet often! Its very sad to admit , but my ppl don't get excited for traveling or make plans that excite me for traveling and trust me that piss me off big time! I feel like running off to the Indus Civilization, at least there I can explore somemore things and later it'll be embossed, in golden words , in the history books! :P

Anyways, I jus pray the guy I marry is a traveling freak! Is Vasco-Da-Gama alive!? He will only come with me to voyages,of course with good amount of experince :) Yeah ,Vasco? :P

Coming to the topic of the day. On sat, I wanted to travel around and my Tauji n R.D can no bear my passion for traveling . They don't like it at all. And, when they don't like this , I don't like anything to like! Much-aA Chaos! It was sat and all , a weekend when every couple want to hang out and every single approaches for a date and every boss clears up with pending meeting of the week and every brother gives u excuses ,to make his weekend rosy with his gf. So, I was a lonely traveler.But, I did'nt turn back and go home.

I reached the bus stop at 10 Am and the first bus that I saw , I hopped into it. I thought , goign to metro will make my plan much better and give me good options to travel around. I
ve already had lot of C.P , which is the safest and kool place in Delhi one can go. I took a metro feeder bus to Yamuna Bank , near by metro station but I mistakenly got down at Shastri Park Metro , which is very far off and it near by JNU . It took me 1.5 hours to reach ad that day I was feeling ill.

I'd to visit JNU but there was no direct public transport service to reach there , I wud have to change buses 2-3 times. And, it was risky. I called khokho and told him about it , he hads no solution and asked to go back home. Totaly unacceptable opinion. Later, I called Kanika she's a gr8 pal in Delhi. We had plasn to meet but her classes were there,which are only on weekends , so she very kindly asked me to get back home safely and we will make plans this upcoming week. Going back home? I am not doing it. Have come so far, taking pains to enjoy my journey ,I thought. After 20 mins, I asked girl in the metro ticket counter to tell me route to Chandani Chowk.

I tell u what, every morning Dilli-6 title song comes and it excites me from top to bottom and I observed very keenly the red fort and chandni chowk area in the music video. I havn't seen the movie. But, in childhood , when I was 10 or 11 years we visited Red Fort and Chandni Chowk Street. I don't remember anything from that trip.So, it was a good idea to visit it again and alone to explore more of it.

Now, there's a catch .Station like Shastri Park,Yamuna Bank dosent have direct metro to Chandni Chowk Metro .So, one has to go till Kashmiri Gate and then again take a metro to Chandni Chowk. I did'nt quiet understood the concept initially but after going to Kashmiri gate 4 times in a day , I understood what a Yellow line is and what Red Line is!

I reached Kashmiri Gate, it was one station from Shastri Park Metro ,then took an underground metro from Kashmiri Gate to Chandani Chowk. On reaching Chandni Chowk , I saw a huge crowd using metro and its very useful for Delhi Junta-very kool and convenient to travel.But, at times yellow -red line sucks!

Chandni Chowk isn't a safe place, and u've to takecare of ur stuff and of urself very much. Anything is possible there. I met two ladies on the way who came with me , to do shopping from there. They had some marriage at home.But,we departed soon coz I was not in a mood of shopping from there. They guided me way to Red Fort ,Market and a famous Gurudwara,there.

I covered all three, very well and enjoyed it. Trust me Chandni Chowk is not a place for anyone who dosen't know to bargain. You will entire life laugh at urself for paying so much and not bargaining it! Its warning. I had my fun in Chandni Chowk but that was not enough to satisfy.So, I got back to C.C Metro and found the nearest place to roam about and Rohini came out to be the only option.

Rohini is East and West.Rohini West has better stuff to look upon. I was in the misconception I'll get direct metro to Rohini but yes I was wrong, again I will have to change metro from Kashmiri Gate. So, I took a full ticket to Rohini. Got down at Kashmiri Gate (K.G) and fastly boarded the Rohini Metro.

Met a school girl in the metro , who was returning hom after giving her medical entrance exam . Her name was Timsy- a greek princess. She was going to Rithala. I asked her about Rohini , what malls and all are there and she decalred it has nothing but apartments, it'll be best if I got to Rithala instead. I took a snap decision and decided but issue was my ticket .She even had a solution for this; if at all we reach a station less than our ticket price , we can refill it and take exit .It has no issue.

So, I had to pay Rs.3 extra and I got down at Rithala, we took a Riksha togther and Timsy dropped me to Metro Walk .On the other side it has got an amazing Adventure Park , but u need company for that and if u r traveling alone its like curse :( I missed khokho n frnds there .Wish they were there.

Metro Walk was boring it has same stuff and added thingie was there was no shade ,its like a street where u can walk! duh! But, if one goes in group of frnds or with family , its a treat. To me it wasn't. After spending 2-3 hours there I was hungary and went to Mc D .Had the regular junk and msgd khokho if he's free. I somehow was feeling very bad and wanted to meet bhai.But, he was not free and the conversation went cruel coz of my demand..

I took a metro to K.G again from Rithala.Then got the new shock of the day , there's no direct metro to Yamuna bank from K.G . To reach Yamuna bank , I will have to go Rajeev Chowk Metro . Trust me , it was stupid. I had no options ,I wanted to be safe and this was the convenient option I 'd.

I took a direct ticket to Yamuna Bank from K.G. Boarded a metro for Rajeev Chowk from K.G. Reached Rajeen Chowk. Inquired the platform no. for Yamuna Bank Metro. Boarded the Y.B Metro and finaly phew reached there.Thankfully, coming out I got the Metro Bus feeder to my home and I reached home.

This sounds a bit complicated but I am quiet proud of myself for experiencing this and understanding more about life, ppl and traveling. I enjoyed it. But, an emotional pain was there..crush in Delhi! Get the gap? :P

khokho rox!

hehe ..don't start throwing eggs n tomates at me :P I told u my mood is volatile and khokho knows it!

I love khokho ! :) As I've been sharing my fights with khokho in here. So, the recent fight we had really blew me off and I was fused. But, khokho is damn cute and has ways to make it up ,not just my mood but anybody's! u bet!

He called me to for lunch and I refused. But, he's my father, brother,frnd how can I repeat what he did to me, after all he's elder to me and I can't disrespect him :) So, I agreed. After taking lot of pains ,khokho reached to pick me and khokho never remember things, may that be roadways or anyways !

So, it happnd and this time I also was bad :( after al I don't kw Delhi -Noida , I m new here.Call it an excuse? hehe ;) Later somehow we reached and not to our destination but a near by place, SabMall to find some eatery.

We got the Glass Lounge and trust me I never stepped the escalators so fast before! Khokho is rambo! And, poor hotels I pity them , for having a guest \customer like khokho. He's a devil! Man, he screwed the entire lounge ,seriously next time I am gonna wear a burka if I go with him!

He criticizes badly, BADLY and I mean it. In fact, u will be amazed with the type of question he raises and the answer he expects and give feedback at! I was so much thinking, how can khokho talk to me so much?

Also khokho is great with acting skills , he will pretend to be a naive person on earth but his mind , works at hell of a speed ! I wonder , where he should actually be!

I give a seal on it ,there's no other guy like khokho , who exist in this big big universe. My khokho rox! And, love u khokho :) n next time u fite , i'll make up :P rest u only will ;)



Sare jaha se acha,khokho hi hai dil ka sacha :)

meri wali pepsi!!

Sportsbar Contra-Controversy!

Those , who are religiously reading my blog , I've to say do comment , it'll make me learn do formating :P hehe . Coming to the note, u must known by now how much craze I've to visit a Sportsbar.

Now, those who have visited a sportsbar , please please do tell me what exactly is a sportsbar. I looked over the net for the meaning of a sportbar and I got zilch. My cousin caused a fury the other day , when I asked him to take me to a Sportsbar , near our house and he went hazy ,almost preached me for 1 hour ,sitting next by him in the car, is crime ,that too alone! huh

Can u blve it , I compromised Sportsbar with Dominos Veg extravaganza! R.D is very cruel at times he took me , and was busy in a business call. It was so so annoying but he took my pic ,while chit chatting from his cell phone! And, this devil showed is colors ,when he asked his business associate ,if he has ever been to a Sportbar and made my fun in front of him ":( Moron!

The other day ,I searched on the net about the near by Sportsbar .And, there was a Sportsbar in Sec-38A ,Noida , in The Great India Place Mall. I asked Nisha , if she wanna join in. She nodded a yes and we had our plan set.

At 6pm, we left the office ,yesterday (21.05.09) and took thankfully after waiting for a il while got a direct bus to Atta , which is opposite to Sec-38 A. By the then , tauji called me , where I am and how much time it'll take to come home. He got quiet disappointed, when I told him about my this plan.He could'nt say more than , 'ok come soon'.

Nisha and I had no clue ,that Great India Place is opposite to Centrstage Mall , in Sec-18. Thankfully , we reached Great Mall. And, trust me it is so far the best mall I visited in Noida .Great architecture, great barrings , beautiful concept and various outlets to choice from may that be in the category of food , clothing or accessories.

After crossing the floors escalators by escalators ,we finally got the Sportsbar! Its next to Big Cinema Theater. In the front u c Dhoni standing with his hair wide open :P in red and white shade . A very summer shade.

We peeped inside and it had a huge section of bar and in a small corner there lied a Pool Table, Casino like thing next to it and all GUYS! They all seemed like gay to me :P hehe

We had no guy with us.so we quit it , and moved by next food corner , Pind Baluchi this is based on the concept of Punjab and serves punjabi food. It has got best food at good rates. For South Indian ,the best is Sagar and being big fan of Chinese I even had many options to eat from.But,I wanted to try Thia Food or Mexican.

Later, we end up going to a Food Court ,called 'Spoon' . And, had a pizza . It was 8 pm by then , Tauji again called me , this time in aggression. And, asked me to call R.D if he can pick me. I ignored calling him coz he already gave me huge preaching the other day. After a while,R.D called me himself, inquired where I am. And....he started...he said all things that could screw me hard.Blah Blah Blah. And, he was red hot angry.

I msgd him sorry and he said , he will come after an hour to pick me.Nisha lives in South Ex. She had to leave coz if she leave at 8pm ,the only she will reach home by 9:30PM.So, we inquired about the bus,that she can board. She had to take a bus till rajnigandha and then another bus direct to south ex.

A lady met us on the way, and asked not to go alone that way,at least not by walking.So, she took a bus and thankfully she reached home safe. By the then, 'd to wait ,1 hour alone. So, centerstage mall wa best n safe plce to hang around. I could have talked with khokho by that time , but I had a huge fight with khokho :( He's bad**

And, R.D was already angry with me. Both brothers ,both are sweethearts and both are a fast turn-on devils! huh. R.D B'day is around.So, I though i'd but something for him.

I looked around, wanted to buy a wallet for him,though I've gifted him once.but, later went to Archies .And, thought of giving him a Sorry card. I got a beautiful card very very cute and man would melt away , but this moron ! grrrr

Also, I saw a very cute froggie ,which I assumed will make him laugh.I was out of cash but still I managed to buy that stuff , under the sorry category ! He reached to pick me. I got into the car , and in a very dramatic way gave him the two packets of Archies.

First , was a card , which he did'nt like at all and blowed me , why u bought it, its a waste for me etc etc. I felt very bad, but did'nt show it to him. Second , was froggie . He opened it and started criticizing , what the shit is this ,he was not at all happy and was moreover disgusted.

I felt extremly bad and a tear got down my eyes. He saw it and asked what happnd? I refused to answer and kept looking outside he window of the car. At the same time , remembered khokho. And, thought why my brothers have turned so different for me. R.D asked me a few things on the way, about office etc. I did'nt answer , I disliked talking to him then:(

I got back home, tauji called me , gave me gyan about delhi and its unsafe surroundings. He's more kool than these brothers! I went back to my room.

R.D came and asked me to come for dinner ,later tauji emotionall blackmailed me and called for dinner. I cannot make him upset .

Today morning, r.D had meeting at 7:30 Am ,he asked to come with him and I had no wish to go with him.I refused and will go alone.Tauji ,dropped me to stop , thankfully I got a riksha but at 9Am , the traffic is huge and it gets very difficult to board a bus and reach on time.

I got stuck in a traffic jam, then khokho called me and I again had a fight with him , he banged the phone and it ended.But, tell u what my mood is very volatile! Even khokho n R.D knows it ! :P

Launch of Kiazen

Now folks don't wonder me writing a techie blog post , this is preety much included in the intern-O-arena!
Yesterday , was a special day in my company ,the M.D of the company came down from Frankfurt to launch Kiazen in Corporate Head office -Finance deppt. rest other deppt have implemented Kiazen a long time back.

There was a board meeting and some new by-laws were passed. The news that makes me most happy is ...with immediate effect we will get sat off!!! yuppie!! Second , there would be per employee a Kiazen sheet. Which will take place in the form of ballot voting ,having red, blue, white colors to symbolise the remarks we give.

Additionally we interns , Nisha and I were also called to cast our votes.And ,the 3rd one os off to a few holidays,ie. Anupama. Miss u girl!

The kind of comunication the M.D have with the employee is amazing , the M.D was attitude-free,down-to-earth , very friendly with employees.Everybody was happy , the office face-off was changed from daily serious and damn professional enviroment it was more like a relax and family enviroment.

Kiazen is a Japanese word meaning gradual and orderly, continuous improvement. The Kiazen business strategy involves everyone in an organization working together to make improvements 'without large capital investments'.

While, the launch of Kiazen ,a senior next to my cabin , asked me ,what is kiazen ? And, I replied him the exact answer.He was quiet amazed and asked if I am doign my M.B.A :P and from where .NIT-B ki naak uchi kara di .hehe

Kiazen is a culture of sustained continuous improvement focusing on eliminating waste in all systems and processes of an organization. The Kiazen strategy begins and ends with people. With Kiazen, an involved leadership guides people to continuously improve their ability to meet expectations of high quality, low cost, and on-time delivery. Kiazen transforms companies into 'Superior Global Competitors'.

Kiazen was initially started by Toyota in the country. Kiazen is said to have produce better n best results. In our company , every month a Kiazen is submitted by the employee showing the before and after effects and displaying the changes that have brought in process ,that makes the result up to higher credits.

I like the concept of Kiazen. I always hated Operations Reasearch , coz it always pulled down my grades. But , here I realise OR is fun , why can't i do my majors in it :( Practical knowledge is imp in life, may that be anything , a small thing also has its high value. To motivate , the employee the higher the Kiazen points go , the employee get a free gift from the company , a microwave , or a trip to abroad, or a cutlery etc etc

We also have 5 S Acitivity here , which is followed up by the Improvement Cell of the company. This is again a concept that has its importance.

yeh dilli hai....

The only day I can relax is ,Sunday ! Rest everyday I've a office and my boss is very very particular and sincere.I can't leave before though I come one hour early daily !

This sunday was my first sunday and I wanted to go to a Sportsbar or Gurgoan (ggn). After sleeping till 4 pm , R.D ,Tauji and I got ready to leave for shopping at ggn.

Whenever i've visited Delhi , I could never visit Qutub Minar. I so very much had a desire and while going to ggn, its on the way.But, it gets close at 5pm and we were unfortunatly late.So,we moved towards ggn.

First mall ,that I visited was City & Centre Mall.A Mall is a mall what matters in a mall ,is the size! But, this mall was fine and even saw a few celebs, whose name I don't kw! I liked up a few brands and left the rest for my next visit there, within a month.

Crossing the road , you see MGF Mall , which is next to 'Its Friday' Pub. I wanted to go Select City mall , but these two were more than enough!

By the then I was hungary and R.D had to give me a dinner so from ggn we went all the way to Shopprix Mall @ Delhi -61 Milestone. The set was amazing but I was luring more for Dominos Pizza than Butter Chicken. But, we had butter chicken only :)

After that super day out and long drive I wanted a sound sleep.And, after talking with mum-dad I slept...I miss them!

Brick Lane..

After fight with khokho I became regular to my office. And, on saturday i.e 16May . My Boss called me and explained me my project. I was dealing with a very minor issue and now on I will called in the executive meetings with CFO etc

With me in office there are two more girls with me in the entire corporate office. Its only three of us. Anupama , is from Amity Business School,Delhi. And, Nisha is here for CS interns. We gelling very fine that day and were sharing stories with each other and helping . In lunch ,we decided to go to a near by mall in Noida. Shopprix , is the mall near by. They both got permisson from their boss and I was sure my boss will give it anyway.But, he did'nt permit me and gave me some gyan for free.I had to stay back,So, I did.

They both had to leave coz , permission was granted and staying back was risky. So, they asked me to reach the mall by 6pm and they would wait there for me. By the then , around 6pm tauji called me , R.D called me saying he will pick me from office but that was not possible. So, I went to mall by riksha and did some shopping and was in Mc D and had fun.

Khokho Epilouge - II

My visit to C.P alone , on the second day of my Delhi tour ,was a sure short worry for my family ,tauji ,R.D but I was sure my khokho but appreciate me for this treat to myself but surprisingly khokho had the voilent behaviour.And,he was fiting with me :(

I made it very snappy on the phone because I was afraid my parents would barge in on me right in the middle of it.They did'nt, though.Khokho is one person on earth I never fear telling things. I am very bindass with him coz he beleives in giving freedom and understand the desires n dream of a person , at least mine. He heard me a few minutes of my visit and then he started with his belching lessons.He did'nt like what I did.He was angry on me more than anybody could and then I started arguing like a teenage daughter to a dad!

He was about the best teacher I ever had.You could kid around with him without losing your respect for him.Though we both play Antakshari of some pathetic word with his consistent my favorite ringtone produced by him , that goes like 'hehehe hehehe hehehe' very rythemic!!

That night I called him later and said a sorry . The best part of him is ,he understands my impulsiveness coz he's also impulsive:P (haha) He admits though the level of impulsivness is more in me when compared with him. It can be true though no accurate results as of now!

Again, on Friday ie. 15 May 2009. I had to go to meet Swati , my friend from Bhopal.She called me the other night and asked if I can meet. I was very dicey ,should go or should not go.But , I was starving to meet my ppl and specially my female frnds. So, I heard my heart and lied my tauji and went ahead to meet her. And ,she called me at C.P at 1 PM!

At office I reach 9 AM so as I was lying at home . I did'nt go with R.D to office. I though I 'll take a direct bus to C.P from my area bus stop. But, a twist occured tauji is so protective of me , that he came down to bus stop to drop me and even come along till ofice. I somehow managed to stop him but it was tuff!!

So, I took a bus to 12-22 and then took another bus to C.P . I did'nt like the bus at all . Pathetic. In morning the rush is much that a destnation of 1 hour will take u 2.5 hours! Somehow , I reached cursing the bus I took. I reached at 11 Am and I still had 2 hours to meet Swati. I caled if she 's free before that, but she was'nt.

Incidentenlty, I saw Oxford Book House.And, books are my favourite so I was confident 2 hours will pass like that. Oxford was awesome , I enjoyed it.It was new for me and I preety much liked it. While readng books I met a girl and asked her about British Library ;friends in Bhopal asked me to visit BCL,Delhi.

I asked her and got to know it was near by. Her name was Kanika , completed her B.CoM from DU and was preparing for Civil Services. She was there with her fiance Ashish. They both told me about the near by places that I can visit and shop from. Near by was Janpat.

They both joined me to Janpat and helped me shopping .They both were cute and had immense of respect for each other. Hardly I c respect in a couple for each other. They both were great with me. And , they picked up stuff for me, bargained for me. No doubt, Ashish had a great choice of clothing, footwear and kanika was a master too. I had the best buy. Thanks guys!

After a couple of hours, Swati called me ,she was with her friends and was waiting for me at Janpat . I departed from kanika -ashish and promised to meet them again.

Eventually, was not fed up with Janpat and so was I. So, we took an auto and went to Lodhi Road. I so very much wanted to visit India habitat Centre . We went to Lodhi garden first, sat there for an hour , took some pics et al.

Then on my request , making faces all of us went to habitat centre and they kept sitting at one place there and I was roaming alone. But, that was fun and the rest of the part was not allowed as it was open only for Burocrats.

That part of Delhi is amazing ,I really loved it. We again took an auto and came back to C.P to head towards our destination . I left early ,without the Mc.D treat! Took a metro from C.P to Yamuna Bank this time. And ,then a direct metro feeder to my home. And, trust me this was easy to travel with.

Coming back, I called khokho to narrate him my trip . And, the first thing he asked ," why are u not in office today? " and then followed a huge lecture.He kicked me right -left for being so irresponsible , for having random fun trips, for missing office ,etc etc

My anger was then obvious. So, I again had a fight with him and banged the phone. I mean come on , khokho can't be like other fathers! He was just not ready to hear me out.And, that pissed me off big time. Later , I went to net cafe to access orkut :( met khokho and we started talking, then discussing, then arguing , then fighting and then a shortcircut ,followed by a White Flag by Khokho.

He's highly disappointed with me , and thinks I don't listen to him , I don't respect him. Its not like this khokho :(( I love u the most. I respect u ,heartly.But, I never thought u'd react in such a way. U have always supported me and always encourage me . I was not ready for such a reaction from u. I know I've hurt u. I am 1000 times sorry for it. Khokho... I am still the same. I am ur 'bachi'. And, we might have a fight for a day but in my heart I keep cursing myself for fiting with u...

Please, don't misunderstand me...I always listen to u and will keep doing. And, I am still the same. Sorry :( and love u always ,khokho

Will always miss chachi....

Reaching Delhi and living here was not difficult till I got the news of Chachi 's death. It was my first day at office ie. 12th May 2009 and whole day I was sitting and was talking to seniors till my lappy was to be alloted.I was introduced to my Project guide and Boss Mr.Atul Jain , Head fin Corp. This man is amazing , he's very sincere and particular about his and inspires me a lot.

Then I was asked by guide to co-ordinate with his assistant .Also, in my next cabin sits Project Head Finance -Sanjay Sir, he's a very good friend now and helped me a lot As my guide's assistant was about to give me my assingment,R.D gave me a call . I called him back and he said , " chachi ki death ho gayi " I was shocked could'nt blve the news and started crying , did'nt knew to whom should i go and cry with .First day of office I heardly got to know ppl there.I went to guide and asked if I can go , told him the reason and he gave me an off.

Coming out of the office , near guard office I could'nt stop myself and started crying , called up khokho then , he made me a bit relax and was informing tinu n parents. I had no clue about public transport in Delhi Noida . I somehow managed ,and where I live from there I've change to bus .In second bus , somebody guided me wrong and I had to step down at wrong station. But I managed. Reached home.

Later. called dad , asked him why he did'nt tell me and all cried a lot...I met chachi..before coming for interns...I went to her place ,she made me eat the cake prepared by her and I cooked her baked Garlic Bread , she liked it a lot. She gave me money to have fun and...she cried when I was leaving.....I will always miss u chachi.... and I will always do my best to help chotu with life ... Chotu is my cousin , whose mom was my chachi... my chacha , his father expired 10 years back , and his real sister expired 14 years back..he's just a 21 year old guy. Now, who is alone..in this world.....but I am always with him .

The second day of office , I had no wish to go, but due to tauji n parents forced me so I went to office. I did some work and took a half day ,was not at all feeling good and wanted a change so I went alone and took a bus to Indraprasth and thought will ride in Metro and will come back but fortunatly I met some great girls in the bus who helped me figure out things and asked to stepdown at C.P .It take 1.5 hrs from the place I live ,to reach there. I was scared , had a fear but I was confident I will reach. I got down near Stateman Building and saw what a great place C.P was... When I went to Mumbai this year , I was staying at South Mumbai and that became my dream place to work at , but after seeing C.P , this even sounds to be great.

Fortunately, I saw Oxford BookHouse there books being my weakness I thought I'll pass on my time . But, I missed the door and moved forward in the street. I took a turn near the subway of DBS bank and met a girl called Riya. I inquired from her the places I can visit and she asked me if i wud like to join her, as she is going that way , I was more than happy to accompany her and we became best of frnds , we were together for 4-5 hours had complete fun of C.P Circle went to all luxury class showrooms and and all eatery place , Mc D being my fav , we had ourlunch there and as this visit was unplanned I had to get bck hom by 6:30 pm .

Riya took me to her office ,she's based outta Chandigarh lives in dwarka with her parents. Later se dropped to C.P Metro Station and came along to see if I safely reach there. It was first time I was travelling in Metro and trust me it was awesome !

I took a ticket for Indraprasth and got down there.But, that was a wrong choice. I had to change 2 buses to reach home. Had I got down at Yamuna Bank , I could have got a direct bus feeder to my place.

But, this trip was great and I felt good . By the then my new Airtel Stuck number also got activated after 3 days of application n procedures! Huh

Going away from home.....

ok am EXCITED!!! and i have no clue how to start or end it but i do know ,now am in very much spunk and spark!

Its my 3rd Day in NCR. On 11th May 2009 I reached here with my 'Tauji' coz my dad cancelled his ticket in last moment due to the exurtion he will have and also coz one of our family member was admitted in hospital. I was hell annoyed coz of this and 4 times me was my khokho annoyed!

I have to admit , this is my first ever stay alone outside, the prelims we can say to IIT-KGP visit ,where i had Su and her Grandpa , which is equal to family
,and that trip was just for a week!

And, this one is for 6 weeks! i.e 1. Months! Hard for me, but all frnds, relatives, well wishers were happy that finally i'll be seing e real world! And, every minute that I spent here , I remember the wisdom my frnds gave . Thanks to all of u :) A special mention to Randip Sir aka Ricky ,my khokho is forever there and my frnds Pagare,Sikander n my sis Tinu , my mum-dad!

AS I reached station , I realized am actually leaving for interns to Delhi! My mum pushed dad to hug me...as he hugged me I got to stick to him for 15 mins and was crying !! Somewhere, I was happy that no distance or difference is there between dad n me.I love that moment and will always thank my mum for making that happen`:)

Now ,if I cry , my sis , my mum n on that even my Tauji cried with whom I was going! So, call it love of the family! After boarding the train, I msgd my dad to thank him ,to let me go and show trust in me.Love u dad!!

Also, in the main Bhopal Junction Ricky met me with Neetu ji , which was a great meeting both of them n they both were looking great together!!! Wish them luck for life :)

I willkeep posting about my 6 weeks interns here in Delhi . Just keep looking for it and miss u all , do put up ur comments here coz Orkut is blocked in my office :( n i used all hit n trial nothing helps!

love vj