The Person

Words escape me at this moment..that seems like the end yet, I am here to tell u how important you were to me..and, even now also, when u r departed. One flash... n here appears someone of a specie u haven't seen before ..someone so versatile u haven't seen before ..someone so caring n loving u haven't trusted before ..someone so different from rest of the world u haven't felt so lucky before in life. Tears fill me with memories of good and bad some nearly forgotten but all dear to the heart you were there for me, more importantly you were with me...

One who always believed in me ...bolster me to do something... at least something in life!!! While the entire world applauded me for my efforts .. but one person was lukewarm . Tat hurts a lot..even now..but still I am a mad , stubborn devotee of this person...'For sure..I have lost it !'

" Stupid, Idiot, Irresponsible , Rot , exasperating , dramatic ,kool gal , irritating ... all driven till infinity" , are the words this person always complimented me with . Every conversation I'd .. was started by me and ended also.. with a precondition I've to talk sense only...each time I talk ! The other side, was never interested in taking the conversation for more than 5 min ..even wen sense talks prevail ! No day I was asked 'How I am Today?' ..no concerns were ever expressed about me or my life ,which other friends n loving ones..never forgot to ask. Thanks to all of them... but still this hard-coated animal was most lovable and respecting to me. May be I am a biiig fool..Yes I am!

If I keep a record I can never forgive this person..for misunderstanding me so much, for being dogmatic holding right as a friend , for being so harsh n rude in my happy moments, for talking to others even strangers in good n pleasing way but not with me ...why? ,for always blaming me , what I am ..why I only do so many mistakes , for always leaving me with a note ' I am gud for nothing', for alleging me to do an offence I never ever plan in my life for anyone...I hate it but still I've pain in my eyes for insulting this respecting person..like no one ever did before!

Those a few giggles I heard from this person ,on my senseless talks I'm proud of ..but will never ever repeat for anyone else again in life. A joke I heard from this person , makes me laugh so loud even now , that no other pj ever did.Yes..I remember those loving moment wen my name was said in anger or sometimes in loving...I still feel tat echo in my ears...even now...and I want it to go on..and on..

Don't know, why some ppl are so immature in feelings even after growing and achieving so much in life. Why are they so numb to others feelings...what pains do they have tat makes them so harsh n emotionless! I don't blame the person ..no I can't .. But Why Not?? even after suffering so much..even after being hurt so much, why someday I expect this person to change n make a Grande Come Back in my life ..tats a stupid and impossible dream!

Still a blessing comes from my heart..'May this person always have a gud life and get what The Person wants '. And , may god give both of us a chance, once in a life so tat if we anytime misunderstood each other ..tat can be cleared out . You were gud person Thanks to you. And I'd always respected u..n will be doing always.

This time I'd like to take excuse from my readers for not entertaining them. BTW...Happy Valentine's Day to all ...May u guys live happier ever after. And to those who are singles..like me dont worry...we ppl are the cuttest n loving ppl of this world !